When you already encounter God in your life.
You can remember to the things that you did to the Lord is terrible, and while you’re crying you can remember the good things he did to you even though you know yourself that you don’t deserve it. You remember the goodness and faithfulness of God.
For my part when I encounter God in my life.
I felt terrible for all the things that I’ve done to God, and to other people.
I felt ashamed facing them and asking forgiveness from them because I don’t deserve it.
But I’m still thankful because I know God before I am getting worse.