I am one of the media in our church. I am active in all activities in our church, but I didn’t realize that the real reason why I was in the ministry was gone, I prioritized the ministry over my relationship with the Lord. So I came to this point, that I was drained too much, at this time while I was typing I was crying so much, not crying because of emotion but longing for the presence of God, I admit that I neglected my first love which our Lord God and at this time I really begged for forgiveness from the Lord and he accepted me freely. I realized that the Lord does not want to be good and active in the ministry, but to spend in His presence, the ministry is just a bonus because that is the result of my love for Him.
Glory to God.